Losing is Gaining

Always involved in activity and finally after getting tired taking rest for few hours either in the form of a sleep or meditation was a regular part of my life. It was in June 2010 at Nagarkot when i first experienced and enjoyed the Silence where i got the opportunity to be with silence. In those four days of silence i felt it was a real going home to take rest. I'd a motive to find myself to understand myself and with so many other agendas to explore. At the end of the fourth day when i was suppose to break the silence i felt, I've lost something and found something. I was there to find myself and but I end up losing myself. I was completely into the silence where i even forgot what i want to have or what i was seeking.That feeling of not seeking anything was losing myself being in bliss and was something which i felt like void but yet containing fullness. I'm enchanted by the silence. Now i listen to the silence and become its witness losing everything. It made me realize that achievement is not in gaining but having the capacity to lose and even after that  remaining blissful or being in contentment. Don't know what is it, but i just know i love losing myself with no agenda to seek for. So i'm again going to lose myself for the third time enjoying being with the silence, being just hollow and empty and vacuum i.e. losing myself and i love this... Losing which is in fact Gaining the contentment  it brings :)